Approximately 3,000 Earth years ago
Location: Unknown, Spirit Realm
Dearest… how are you?
Saros’s voice gently pulls me out of my dream state. I have never heard him call me that before: dearest. It feels… tender. Endearing. Soothing.
Hi, I respond groggily as I sit up. I feel his energy envelop me, and I sense that he is pushing me peace. He feels like a warm, calming wave, and it reminds me of my home planet, Earth. I’m feeling… okay. I feel okay. How are you?
He chuckles quietly. I’m fine, Avania. I’m more concerned about you, though. You slept for quite some time. I’m relieved; you needed the rest. I see him in my mind’s eye and gasp quietly. He looks human although I’m fairly sure that human is a species of Earth, so he likely is not. He is strikingly handsome, with tan skin and dark eyes and hair. He’s tall with a strong build. His eyebrows are furrowed, no doubt considering how little I have been sleeping since I arrived on this planet.
I have been here now for… a while. Days? It’s hard to tell, but it’s been quite some time. Saros has been by my side without fail. I pick up on his conversations with the others every now and then. They are still convinced that he is trying his hardest to tap into my energy; however, I know better. It has taken some time for me to trust him completely, but he has given me full access to his thoughts, his energy, his emotions. I see his intentions. I trust him. He is here on behalf of Source, and I have no reason to believe that he is lying to me.
Something about his energy today, however, feels different. I focus my energy to try to make it out. I reach for him in my mind, and I observe his shoulders relax as he takes a deep breath.
You feel it, don’t you? he asks. You know…
I feel… something…, I reply, still focusing my energy to try to understand. What is this? This emotion? He smiles gently, and suddenly, it makes complete sense. You… you are in love with me? How? I stop focusing my energy toward connecting with him, allowing him the chance to explain without my interference.
What do you mean? He chokes back a laugh. Of course I am in love with you…
I think back on the last several days and it begins to make sense. I had felt his energy softening over time. I felt him become more and more protective of me, more concerned about me. He would stay up for hours talking to me, ensuring that I never felt alone. I suppose I just assumed it was all part of the mission, the one that Source had put him on. I just figured he was fulfilling his duties.
Yet as I connect with him today, I sense the goosebumps running up and down his body. I can feel his heartbeat and the warmth in his face. He is flushed with emotion. So this is what it looks like to be in love...
I smile warmly, unsure of how to respond. I have never been in love, at least not romantically, so it is difficult to know if I share the emotion.
It doesn’t matter, he says, no doubt sensing my hesitation. I let out a breath, my worries easing immediately. It doesn’t matter if you love me back… it doesn’t change how I feel about you. And there is no pressure. I just… I realized it a few days ago. When I was sitting with you, listening to you tell me about your meadow. It hit me out of nowhere; it took my breath away. I realized…, he stops, seeming to consider his words carefully. I realized that I don’t want to be away from you. That I always want to be near you, next to you. I’m going with you, Avania. When you leave this planet, I’m coming with you… to Earth.
When I leave…? I hadn’t considered that it could truly be possible. I have been so stuck in my present suffering that I had not stopped to imagine what it could be like to actually go home. I have simply been surviving and here was Saros telling me that he was leaving… with me.
Just as quickly as the hope of that possibility arose within me, a sharp pang of reality set back in. The voices return, reminding me of how far from home I truly am. You’re not going home. Are you kidding me? You are lost. You are forgotten. You are mad. There is no hope…
Avania, stay with me, Saros is trying desperately to ground me, pushing me peaceful energy. They’re not here, Avania. They can’t hurt you. Be here now… Listen to my voice.
I drop down into the fetal position and cover my ears. I scream, but there is still no sound. The voices get louder and louder, drowning out Saros’s pleas until all that is left are their voices, venomously talking over one another, reminding me of how deeply out of touch from reality I am.
I tug at my hair in an attempt to bring myself back to this moment. Chunks of hair fall away, and I smell blood. No! No, not again…
Suddenly, I feel an energetic charge course through my body. In my mind’s eye, I see vibrations in the air around me, within my enclosure and outside of it. Power lines crackle, and I can hear alarms going off in the distance.
Saros is breathing deeply, his stature in an offensive posture. Then, I feel him scramble to regain his composure as others enter the space.
“What the… What the hell was that, Saros?!” one of the voices says as he walks toward us. This being… he is the one in charge. There are two others trailing him as he enters the space.
“I… I don’t know, Izar,” Saros answers. He’s lying to them; I can sense it when I connect to his energy, his intentions. However, they don’t seem to pick up on it at all.
“Did she do that? How could she possibly?!” They are all buzzing with questions, examining possibilities. A faint smile touches my lips as I think through what I know happened: Saros cast out the voices. He brought the energy back to neutral. And it came at a cost.
“I’m just as confused as you are!” he snaps back, his energy beginning to return. This is a performance, I think to myself. “I don’t know what happened, but I won’t find out unless you get off my back!”
In my mind’s eye, I see Izar eyeing him suspiciously. “Fine,” he finally mutters. “Find out what the hell just happened and report back as soon as you get some information. But Saros… I am warning you. My patience is wearing very thin. You better start producing some results. This is…”
“I got it,” Saros cuts him off and turns toward my enclosure. Izar seems agitated but satisfied with having gotten his point across. He snaps his fingers at the other two at his side and points toward the door, and they all turn to leave.
The other two men exit, and the leader turns to face Saros once more. “I see you, Saros,” he breathes threateningly, and Saros turns to face him. “Something isn’t right, and while I know Rowan trusts you, you should know I have my eye on you.” He turns to leave the room, and I sense Saros’s energy relax and refocus on me.
Are you okay, dearest? He transmits the message to me telepathically, and I nod.
I’m okay… are YOU okay?? What happened? I respond.
I had to cast them out, but it is not something I’m used to doing. It took…, he pauses to consider his words, a lot of energy.
I put my hand on my enclosure and connect with his energy. He is depleted, hanging on by a thread. You need rest.
He laughs before retorting, Can we focus on you for just a moment? Are you really okay?
I inhale deeply and scan my body. The voices have dissipated and my physical body feels fine. I bring my hand up to my scalp and wince as I feel the open wounds where I pulled chunks of hair out. I’m okay. I have some wounds on my scalp, but they will heal quickly. I’m fine.
I sense him sigh with relief. He must have been holding his breath as I scanned my body. I…, he begins and I feel warmth wash over my body. I can’t lose you… the thought of it… I just... I can’t.
His love, it’s unlike anything I have experienced to date. I have known love before but not like this. I am curious about it, and I want to explore it more, but I feel my body beginning to shut down. The adrenaline that pulsed through me has melted away and suddenly, my body feels heavy. I slide down the enclosure wall and gently fall into a heap on the ground.
You’re exhausted, he utters and I feel him attempting to push me energy.
As are you, I reply quietly, my mind already drifting off. In my mind’s eye, I see him drop to his knees and eventually lie down on his side.
You know, I never saw this coming, he says gently, and I feel his energy grazing mine. He quietly begins singing long tones that resemble sounds with Earth's resonance. I sense instinctively that he is channeling Gaia to produce the sounds. He sings them so beautifully that it brings tears to my eyes. I place my hand on the enclosure and allow his energy to wash over me.
Suddenly, I see an image in my mind’s eye: both of us in my meadow back on Earth. He’s sitting upright, and I’m lying with my head in his lap. We are laughing at something he had said and as our laughter calms, he puts his hand on my cheek, and I lean into it instinctively. He is pushing hair out of my face with his other hand.
I knew you were my mission, to keep you safe. I knew that I was supposed to protect you. I never knew that I would fall in love with you. You’re magnificent, Avania.
In my mind’s eye, I see him kiss me gently on the lips. I feel a pulse of energy surge throughout my body, filling me with goosebumps. You feel it too, don’t you?
I do, I breathe as the energy in my body begins to calm to a dull roar. I… I am in love with you, too.
I see him smile in my mind’s eye as I close my eyes and fall into a deep sleep.
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